永远委屈着

雙魚其實脾氣很不好
但是雙魚願意委屈著

雙魚希望自己堅強點
至少在別人面前可以瀟灑點

雙魚希望自己不愛哭
因為不哭的話就不會過意不去

雙魚希望自己放鬆點
所以常常一副瘋子的樣子不讓人看穿

control?

lately i have been
unwell
but is it really a sickness?
how can a sickness feel so right?


well,
i don't eat.

i don't eat because i don't like my body and i don't like the way it looks.
i don't eat because there's no one to eat with and i don't like eating alone.
i don't eat because
i don't want to eat.

and i feel fine. i feel great, accomplished, like i am in charge of my own body and my own life, because i have control of something for once in my life, and truthfully

i have control over nothing else.